where'd july go?
yeah, so blog slacker am i. in my defense, though, i am SO not used to this! and i went on vacation over the 4th. ok, ok, slacker.
last night i had a panic attack. it's strange because for a long time they came pretty much every day (i should say every night actually), but now they are much more sporatic. so much so that at many times i have thought that maybe they were gone...leaving as quickly as they came. but then i usually have one that very night. gee, thanks.
anyways, last night's was weird. i woke up out of a dead sleep at 3:30 am with a stomachache. then i couldn't get back to sleep. then my mind was wandering all over the place. then i got a sinus headache/faceache. THEN came the panic. i would start to fall asleep and then gasp for air and feel like i was floating. at this point in an attack i feel like...no, i am CONVINCED (at the time) that i am dying. as in, i want to run into joely's room to say my goodbyes. very scary. but then i took 4 advils and finally fell back asleep, and felt fine this morning. well, as fine as i could with the alarm blaring to get me up out of my comfy bed and promising me a hot, sticky, boring-as-hell day at work. and i was right...hot, sticky, and boring. i LOVE being right. (ask tim.)
so, on with the day...only 29 more days until the event of the decade...my friend bree's 30 birthday party in arizona over labor day weekend. NINE of us are going out to see her...some from college (like me), and some from her hometown. anyways, it should be a freakin' riot! we are so excited! i've never been out there to visit her, AND i haven't gone on a trip like this since before joely was born...actually even before that. there are 4 of us that have little babies we're leaving behind, so it'll be, at some points, a cry-fest. i plan on helping myself, and my panic, by being extremely drunk on the flight out there. (surprise, surprise...i'm not a good flyer.)
the month of august is insanity! i have many things going on in addition to my AZ trip. i have many friends whose birthdays are this month (carey, amber, andy, colleen, matt, bree of course, and my dad), my 3-year anniversary, 2 weddings, AND last but not least...my birthday! unlike old-bree (lol) i'm to be 29. i am making a list of things i want to accomplish before i'm 30...but i'd better hurry since i have less than a week!
ok, this should be enough for the next few days. i won't leave everyone hanging so long till the next post...i prom. (i hope people are actually reading!)
last night i had a panic attack. it's strange because for a long time they came pretty much every day (i should say every night actually), but now they are much more sporatic. so much so that at many times i have thought that maybe they were gone...leaving as quickly as they came. but then i usually have one that very night. gee, thanks.
anyways, last night's was weird. i woke up out of a dead sleep at 3:30 am with a stomachache. then i couldn't get back to sleep. then my mind was wandering all over the place. then i got a sinus headache/faceache. THEN came the panic. i would start to fall asleep and then gasp for air and feel like i was floating. at this point in an attack i feel like...no, i am CONVINCED (at the time) that i am dying. as in, i want to run into joely's room to say my goodbyes. very scary. but then i took 4 advils and finally fell back asleep, and felt fine this morning. well, as fine as i could with the alarm blaring to get me up out of my comfy bed and promising me a hot, sticky, boring-as-hell day at work. and i was right...hot, sticky, and boring. i LOVE being right. (ask tim.)
so, on with the day...only 29 more days until the event of the decade...my friend bree's 30 birthday party in arizona over labor day weekend. NINE of us are going out to see her...some from college (like me), and some from her hometown. anyways, it should be a freakin' riot! we are so excited! i've never been out there to visit her, AND i haven't gone on a trip like this since before joely was born...actually even before that. there are 4 of us that have little babies we're leaving behind, so it'll be, at some points, a cry-fest. i plan on helping myself, and my panic, by being extremely drunk on the flight out there. (surprise, surprise...i'm not a good flyer.)
the month of august is insanity! i have many things going on in addition to my AZ trip. i have many friends whose birthdays are this month (carey, amber, andy, colleen, matt, bree of course, and my dad), my 3-year anniversary, 2 weddings, AND last but not least...my birthday! unlike old-bree (lol) i'm to be 29. i am making a list of things i want to accomplish before i'm 30...but i'd better hurry since i have less than a week!
ok, this should be enough for the next few days. i won't leave everyone hanging so long till the next post...i prom. (i hope people are actually reading!)
posted by sjcb at 2:49 PM
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